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[prince_of_beasts]

A synthesized woman's voice picks up the call.

"Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system. Two - Zero - Two - Nine - One - Eight - Two - One - Three - Two -- is not available now. At the tone, please record your message. When you've finished recording, you may hang up or press the # key for more options."

Dimitri hasn't figured out how to customize the thing yet.

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Re: cw: forced 'drugging', abuse, graphic discussion of suicide, ptsd flashbacks...

[prince_of_beasts]

Goddess. Seiros. Cichol, Cethleann, Indech and Macuil. Every minor saint Dimitri can think to name.

Dimitri's mind catches fire.

I understand enough
I know another passenger who was in a similar circumstance
I can't say any more that without permission but the idea is not new to me

I am so sorry

I am glad you survived

You dont have to say any more about it if its painful

He wants to comfort his friend. He should comfort his friend. But his heart is a furnace; his spine is an anvil; his eyes are in danger of melting from his skull and he cannot repeat what happened with Darcy.

I dont think i can have this conversation in person right now
Its not your fault
Im not good at conrtlo conttrolo controoo fuck it, managing my emotions
But know that you are still my friend
No matter what you were forced to do
It was not your choice
And it has not changed my opinion of you

[firewalled]

I'm sorry that someone else out there knows what this is like
wish i could talk to them but i get it, its hard to talk about
don't apologize though
I should apologize for not telling you sooner

He feels his heart sink just a little bit, his shoulders slump. He curls his body around his phone, as if grabbing onto this last lifeline with all he has.

but then you know what happened with you didn't change my opinion either!
come on dimitri
i really hate to be like this but i just really missed you and i want to see you again

[prince_of_beasts]

Fuck.

Id like tonsee you too
But i cant right now
Im sorry
But when i talked to darcy it went very badly
And i don't want to do that tonyou too
I need to calm down first
Im sorry.
Soon?

[firewalled]

...well, if that's how he wants to play it, then Rich can do the same damn thing.

fine
if i happen to be around
not making any promises though
i mean whats the point of trying anymore huh

[prince_of_beasts]

Back in the careful, measured typing. Trying and retrying for every letter and punctuation mark and muttering curses at his trembling fingers. He wants to do this well. He wants to do it right.

Okay.
You don't have to try, but I will.
I promised Darcy, and I will promise you too.
I will be a better friend to you, Rich.

[firewalled]

Rich doesn't answer, but he reads the message. He reads it a few times actually, typing half the response and then deleting it over and over.

In the end, he doesn't end up sending anything back, not trusting his words to carry enough weight for the situation. But hopefully, Dimitri knows the message was appreciated.